Self Determination Theory

I have a lot of self determination in my life or I wouldn't have gotten as far as I have in my sport. It takes a lot of self determination because you body might say it can't but you have to say to your self that you can do it and push through it. How I am going to use this in my project is actually show it in my project. I will show how much self determination you need and will power it takes to do what I do it. It isn't easy and a lot of people think it is.

the interview

The interview wasn't a huge surprise because I have read it for second time so I kind of already had an idea that's what he was going for. To warn us are show us that its really possible.

Sexuality in this World

So everyone knows me and my boyfriend are virgins! I know omg there still is a 16 and 17 year old that has been dating for over two years and still haven't had sex omg it's a rare species!!! Today I just found out everyone thinks Im weird for wanting to wait to have sex till after high school. I think by looking around these days and how many teenagers are getting pregnant just in my school alone, they should probably start thinking how I am. I don't want to be pregnant in high school so best way to prevent that is not having SEX omg I know I must be a genius. So supposibly it's gay for wanting to wait to have sex I don't know why because if you love and respect someone you want show them that and not just have sex right away and my boyfriend gets called gay all the time and I don't think its right. See I sex as something sacred and I'm not a Christian or catholic or some crazy religion that wants you to wait till marriage, I'm just looking towards my future. Anyways we are still growing and getting to know our bodies and I want to make sure I'm making the right choice to have sex and right now I'm not ready to have sex and I don't think anyone my age is. I think everyone feels like want to be mature so they have to have sex, which is not true people! My friends always tell how they wish they didn't do it with this guy or how horrible it was and how awkward it was, has anyone guessed it's because your not ready?!?! Why can't everyone stop trying to grow up so fast it's so insane how much girls wear make up to try to make them selfs look older. Me personally I wear some make up Im not going to lie but I don't wear a lot and most people can't even tell because I wear natural colors. I don't get girls these days they want respect from guys but have you seen some things that girls wear. Shorts now are like underwear, shirts aren't even shirts anymore its more like you get half a shirt for double the price, and girls wear thongs! I have seen like 13 year olds wear tongs personally I don't wear tongs because I don't want a sting up my ass to be truthful for you all. Ok and then girls wear tongs with spandex talk about trashy please. Then don't get me started on swim suits or bikinis. I like the old days were the bottom went past you hip line and the top cover the whole breast and came down onto ribs. Now days it's like a triangle for breast and a string for your hips and butt. It's so hard now days to find a swim for me to feel comfortable in and then still I always feel naked. I just wish girls would have a little more respect for them selfes. Girls also wanted to be treated the same and be know as smart but then turn around and act stupid In front of guys to get attention. People just drive me insane, feel welcome to leave comments :)

The cold stone truth

For everyone reading this is the truth my family is fucked up. I should probably start off with my biologic dad, well he left me when i was about two years old after my mom left after she caught him cheating. My mom side of the family told her to stay with him becuase he could provide for her and she refused. So my biological dad stoped paying for child suport and I havent seen him since then. On my biological dad side it is a line of drug additics and alcohol abuser and all of them are dead for all I know. On my mothers side its just crazy. My aunt dates rich guys marries them and then divorces them for their money, yeah thats surely something to be poud of, not really. Then my aunt always tries to get in fights with my mom saying like her kids are better or something stupid like that. This why I dont like my aunt around for the holiday becuase they are always ready to explode they are like a ticking time bomb you know it is going to explode you just have to try to guess when its going to be. If I say anything like I dont want her over or anything like that I am the bad guy trying to ruin everything which isn't true beause my mom is always grumpy after her sisiter leaves. On my "Step Dad" side its not much better. I call him just my dad because he has been the best father anyone could ever have. But on his family side I do hav a loving unle that just adores me and would do anything for me like get me my first car. My grandparents on the other hand aren't the best they have always treated me badly. I was never really invited to spend a night or spoiled because I was their only grandchild up until I was about eight years old. My first cousin, Bradley, was born. they told people that was their first grandchild they even said that infront of me like I wasnt even there. That instantly pissed my dad off and he said soething to him, but the ironic thing my grandpa was adopted by great grandfather. My great gradfather loved me and I just wished I had more time with him, he passed away when I was around six. He always wanted to see me and spoil me with cookies and jewlery he made because he was a jewlerist. When he died I was suppose to get everything, all the jewls and gold he had but grandparent got ride of the will and sold everthing that was suppose to be mine. Even till today I'm not the first they always just say I'm the oldest. Anyone out there feel free to comment like or whatever.

Masterpiece progress

Well today was a slow day. I worked on figuring out how I wanted to put my message out. I want to show how hard it is to what I do. I think I should start off with an opening question: Fighting is easy right? Or is it? It kind of bring people in I think. Fighting can be anything from wrestling to jiu jitsu or kick boxing, etc. Then I would go off  saying: I interview a few people in my gym that does differnt style of fighting and got their input on what they think. I also kind of want to do a science part on how hard Someome can kick, punches and how much damaged it can cause. Also with how much pressure it takes to choke someone out. Many people do know a lot about fighting and my mission is to bring this info to people.

Today was not my day

OK well first off I had like zero sleep. So I got a tea with caffeine and then my boy friend dropped it and shatter every where because it was glass, ugh you got be kidding me. Then I had to organize papers today and then this guy came along hit them and they went evey where. The guy doesn't even help or even say sorry!! What is wrong with people today! No manners I just wanted scream and curse and sock him in the face for being suck a jerk. Things were doing good until 7th period. 7th period was doing pretty good until  someone made phone call because wanted to wish his sister happy birthday and I think she is another state or something. This this girl idk her name but she has red hair and supposible doing cosmetics for her masterpiece. But she was doing her make up!!! Um OK ik its doing make up but shouldn't she being looking up the science behind it? Its a lot more than just putting on make up on you and your friends. You have to learn what colors work with what color eye and skin. She started giving me crap and shes like I always do my work which isn't true and I just got so mad because I do my work and I try hard and its not fair.

master piece questions

Questions I am going to ask people I'm going to interview.
1. When did you start training?
2. What type of martial arts do you do?
3. Do you like to compete?
4. How often do you compete?
5. How much would you like to compete?
6. How do you get ready for competition? Do you increase working out? Do you do anything extra?
7. How do you feel the day before competition?
8. What's your favorite thing to train?
9. What weight class are you?
10. Do u compete at professional level? If not do you want to?
11. Where do you see your self in 5 years of competition?
12.  How many hours do you work out a week?
12. What do u do besides practice in your sport? Weight lifting, cardio,etc.
13. What are you eating habits?
14. Would you want your children to do this?
15. How were you introduced into the sport?
16. Do you have a game plan when you go out and compete?
17. How much dedication do you think it takes to do what you do?
18. Did you think it was going to be as hard as it is when you first started?
19. Do you cut weight?
20. How hard is it for you to cut weight?
21. Is there anything you would tell someone to inspire them when they are starting off?

brave new world

CH.6
1. Being alone is a bad thing because there is silence and it makes you recognize your inner thoughts and makes you think about bad things.
2. Lenina and Benards first date was flying over the water. The moon is by its self and symbols individual and the ocean is empty and no one is there.
3. Freedom is being able to an individual and being away from the crowd. He says this because in there society they aren't free they always get told what to do and what's right.
4. The date ends with benard and Lenina hooking up.
5. Infantile in the society is the hole society has been taught to do this or act like this since they were younger.
6. The director dosent like Benard because how he is acting. He's warning him so he dosent have to send him away.
7. The directors story is important because it's like a warning sign of how powerful this place is.
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9. The warden tells them that the reservation is how life used to be people are born naturally and there are family's.
10. Malpais means rough, barren land and have volcano lava and valcanoes.
Ch.7
1. Mesa is like a ship because the banks slant from one wall to another.
2. Lenina dosent like the Indian guide because she thinks that he is queer and gross.
3. The people are skinny and there is aging. People are wrinkly and mothers are breast feeding their babies. Lenina hates it all and thinks it's queer.
4. The ceremony they witnessed to bring rain. Lenina thinks horrible because they wipped the young man.
5. Eagle images and man on a cross emerge from the ground.
6. John savage is not really part of any type of society.
7. Linda was the young girl that got lost on the trip with the director. She isn't a member but they took her in and she want Lenina to take her back.
Ch.8
1. John was shunned from society but the leader like him and he was raised by Linda and got taught the books that his mom had.
2. Linda dosent want to be called a mother because she still thinks it's gross.
3.they are well known
4.john wants to be educated and happy.
5. Linda tells john all the good thinga about the other world and how its better
6. john expresses him self through Shakespeare.
7. To under stand time death and god is to understand life.
8.they are both different in the worlds they live in
9. Bernard wants to take john back for him self so he can make fun of the director that he is father and so he doesn't get sent Iceland.
CH.9
1. He agrees because he thinks its a good idea.
2. John starts to have feeling for lenina when he watches her sleep.
CH.10
1. They make an example of beanrd so everyone will keep in check.
2. unorthodox is worse than murder because its just a life of not fitting in and getting made fun of its like torture.
3. Linda is excited. The DHC is upset with her and the people make fun of her.

My cat

Well my cat got pregnant about two months ago and her babies are due any time now. Her belly is hard and you can feel the babies moving more. It's funny when she curles up because her belly sticks out a lot and it reminds of a pregnant women just how it is formed because it looks like she has a ball in her belly. When she stands up it just kinda looks like she is fat but she is not. All she does any more since she is pregnant is eat, sleep and go to the bathroom. She normally spends a lot of her time climbing trees and sometimes she even sleeps out side, idk why but she does. We have a baby gate up so the dogs will leave her alone or else they will case her every where. My dogs and cat are friends just since she is pregnant she is protecting the babies so she dosent like the bouncing or barking it scares her a lot. She's been more loving she always want her belly to be rubbed or her back. She used to only let me pet her because she was a snob that's my parents would call her. Right now all she is doing is sleeping and making biscuits in the air.